hmmm~ realised have been pms-ing~ got emo here and there, now and then~ having horrible sore throat again but not as bad as last time plus flu today~ =,= exams coming soon but yet i'm in a super super super bad shape~ super~
what have I been doing? studying lor~ trying very hard to squeeze so much stuff into my brain but~ nah~ having probs stuffing it in~ don't know why~ maybe my brain shrinked~
feel like using my brain to slap my heart~ to stop swaying from left to right~ haha~ if only i had gotten a voice recorder and record all my lecs~ so instead of listening to songs that make me feel~ i could make full use of the travelling time to recap on what i've studied~
on mon was feeling very emo after listening to some emo songs~ so walked a different and longer path home~ while walking was staring at the sky as usual~ looking out for stars~ and subconciously walked to this bridge that me and him used to stand there and look at stars~ i still remember that night there were LOTS of stars! damn bright! in contrast to the dark dark sky~ back then the park wasn't that bright so the stars were very very beautiful~ but on mon it was cloudy and there were no stars (if i never remember wrongly)~ would sudd think of things that he would use to say to me and start smiling to myself~ =,= *sounds like some crazy woman rite? XD* but guessed i missed those times la~ when we were together~ though he wasn't really that in love with me or maybe it wasn't even love?
this morn thought of this song which suits me super super well~
眷恋 - F.I.R.
把爱神埋在记忆中 说不出口一种难过
给祝福太多 不能覆盖我的痛
你要转身你要走 不再多作停留
分开是谁说没什么 最难的决定是放手
眼中的落寞 说得都是我的错
当你笑着挥挥手 你的沉默我懂
请别说爱我 推我想向晴天
最温暖的天空 却换了季节
在绝望的面前 洒落一地心碎
就算是伤悲 我不想太狼狈
请别说爱我 别许下心愿
下一秒就出现 你给的纪念
风吹过的思念 曾有过的眷恋
哭红了双眼 再让我心痛 一天
分开是谁说没什么 最难的决定是放手
眼中的落寞 说得都是我的错 当你笑着挥挥手 你的沉默我懂
请别说爱我 推我想向晴天
最温暖的天空 却换了季节
在绝望的面前 洒落一地心碎
就算是伤悲 我不想太狼狈
请别说爱我 别许下心愿
下一秒就出现 你给的纪念
风吹过的思念 曾有过的眷恋
哭红了双眼 再让我心痛 一天
all of a sudden~ i don't know how to be a human anymore~ i am so confused with what to say~ what not to say~ when to say what~ when not to say what~ with everything~ confusing~
i have 2 choices: 1. to be a fish and hurt everyone around me 2. to hurt myself so that everyone around me won't get hurt
is there a 3rd choice? maybe there is but i'm too dumb to think of one~ for now~ i just want to be a fish~ self fish~
