thought I would have got better by now~ had sore throat~ bought med from clinic~ doc say if no fever don't need antibiotic~ BUT!!! after i ate the med~ e rest started coming~ =,= started with feeling feverish~ then abit *cough cough* here and there~ and now?

FLU!!! ARGH~!!!!

wth~ wth~ wth~ wth~ wth~

down with flu for 2 days le~ though its not super bad one neither izzit the H1N1 or whatever shit~ but at this time when i'm suppose to be damn fit and studying~ it came at the wrong time~ bad flu!

sigh~

and plus not enough rest due to sleepless nights~ flipped from 12am to 1am before i could really get some rest~ also have no idea what's going on~ *slaps brain for being overactive*~

later meeting darling for dinneR!!! yay~! =D

go mugggggggggggggggggggggggggg liaoz~ ciaO~!

hmmm~ realised have been pms-ing~ got emo here and there, now and then~ having horrible sore throat again but not as bad as last time plus flu today~ =,= exams coming soon but yet i'm in a super super super bad shape~ super~

what have I been doing? studying lor~ trying very hard to squeeze so much stuff into my brain but~ nah~ having probs stuffing it in~ don't know why~ maybe my brain shrinked~

feel like using my brain to slap my heart~ to stop swaying from left to right~ haha~ if only i had gotten a voice recorder and record all my lecs~ so instead of listening to songs that make me feel~ i could make full use of the travelling time to recap on what i've studied~

on mon was feeling very emo after listening to some emo songs~ so walked a different and longer path home~ while walking was staring at the sky as usual~ looking out for stars~ and subconciously walked to this bridge that me and him used to stand there and look at stars~ i still remember that night there were LOTS of stars! damn bright! in contrast to the dark dark sky~ back then the park wasn't that bright so the stars were very very beautiful~ but on mon it was cloudy and there were no stars (if i never remember wrongly)~ would sudd think of things that he would use to say to me and start smiling to myself~ =,= *sounds like some crazy woman rite? XD* but guessed i missed those times la~ when we were together~ though he wasn't really that in love with me or maybe it wasn't even love?

this morn thought of this song which suits me super super well~

眷恋 - F.I.R.
把爱神埋在记忆中 说不出口一种难过
给祝福太多 不能覆盖我的痛
你要转身你要走 不再多作停留

分开是谁说没什么 最难的决定是放手
眼中的落寞 说得都是我的错
当你笑着挥挥手 你的沉默我懂

请别说爱我 推我想向晴天
最温暖的天空 却换了季节
在绝望的面前 洒落一地心碎
就算是伤悲 我不想太狼狈

请别说爱我 别许下心愿
下一秒就出现 你给的纪念
风吹过的思念 曾有过的眷恋
哭红了双眼 再让我心痛 一天

分开是谁说没什么 最难的决定是放手
眼中的落寞 说得都是我的错 当你笑着挥挥手 你的沉默我懂

请别说爱我 推我想向晴天
最温暖的天空 却换了季节
在绝望的面前 洒落一地心碎
就算是伤悲 我不想太狼狈

请别说爱我 别许下心愿
下一秒就出现 你给的纪念
风吹过的思念 曾有过的眷恋
哭红了双眼 再让我心痛 一天

all of a sudden~ i don't know how to be a human anymore~ i am so confused with what to say~ what not to say~ when to say what~ when not to say what~ with everything~ confusing~

i have 2 choices: 1. to be a fish and hurt everyone around me 2. to hurt myself so that everyone around me won't get hurt

is there a 3rd choice? maybe there is but i'm too dumb to think of one~ for now~ i just want to be a fish~ self fish~

13th May - woke up late as usual~ studied abit before going to work~ went to sch's library @ cuppage after work ended~ Dr dropped me somewher along bukit timah so i reached orchard earlier than expected~ hahaa~ after returning the books went to find my frenz~ who were sitting along orchard bio-ing mei mei~ lol~ went to gloria jeans coffee~ they've got promo~ $3 for small size ice blended coffees (or non-coffees too can't remember)~ chill there~ chit-chat~ went to find da jap restaurant which is cheap and good mentioned by my fren but cannot find so settled for something else~ (lazy to upload pics but will la somedayyyyyy) lol~ went back to same spot to bio mei mei juz that tis time round i'm around so not much mei mei to bio? XD went home~ zzz~

14th May - SIAN AR!!! y? coz gotta work from 11am - 9:30pm~ =,= woke up late as usual~ went to work~ had like break between 4-6pm so instead of gg home and back to work i bought my books to study!!! =D see i so guai~ =p got study abit but spent like 45 mins reading the bible and killing LOTS of brain cells~ =,= went to work~ went home~ TIRED~ but~ went online to research on da trip~ end up slping like 1230am? =,= sian~ haahaa~

15th May - went out to study with bro~ had nice dinner too! (but as usual~ lazy to upload pics but will la somedayyyyyy) lol~ studied quite abit~ but didn't hit my target~ =,= went home~ dota till like 3am this morn~ =,=

16th May - gonna study study study till i go work later~ hahaa~ hopefully can complete my targeted topics so that next week can move on to another subject which I gotta make double or triple the effort if i want to pass as its a new subject i've never taken before~ JIAYOU~! =D

15 DAYS MORE TO FIRST PAPER!!!

5th May - Went to CDANS to see my fren play squash~ conclusion? its a VERY VIOLENT GAME! lol~ though sitting outside the squash court but feels super dangerous~ like the ball will come whacking u~ hahaa~ after that went to eat lunch with them and initially wanted to go back to library to return book but end up~ haha~ =,=

6th May - Went to sch to return book!!! =D but late la so gotta pay fine again~ =,= hahaa~ went to study awhile before going home~ bought flowers and was thinking of how should i surprise the b-day girl who is born on 5th July? (?.?)?

7th May - NEARLY GOT PANGSEI-ED!!! =,= haha~ cause my dear sheep got sabotaged the night before and was havin a very very very horrible terrible headache and giddiness~ =( but lucky she didn't ps mi!!! =D

as usual i've wrapped her a bouquet of flower~ and this year installed some surprises for her...
tada~! donut cake!!! i super like this donut~ its mini donut not those big fat ones which makes u puke from eating too much of it~ and its VERY nice~ =D
big HEART lollipop for da b-day girl and also a necklace (forgot 2 take pic~ XD)

I Have Nothing - Whitney Houston

Share my life, take me for what I am
'Cause I'll never change all my colours for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I can't run away from myself, there's nowhere to hide

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you, you, you, you

You see through, right through the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love
I never knew love like I've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I can't run away from myself, there's nowhere to hide
Your love I'll remember forever

Oh, don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me, no
Don't walk away from me

Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you
If I don't have you, oh you

28th April - Went to library to renew books that i've borrowed~

29th April - Went to play badminton @ CCK stadium~ played 3 hrs~! =D exercise = less fatty! LOL~ went to da new yew tee point to haf lunch~ soso la~ haha~ went mc cafe to study~ their walnut cheesecake damn nicE~! =D but didn't take pic~ lol

30th April - met up with sheena for dinner~ soooooooooooooooooooo happy to see her again~! =D realised haven seen her for like 3 months? XD