21st April - went to jurong east library to study but went to buy david archuleta's CD~ nice!!! hahaa~ haf been listening to his CD the whole of this week~ lol~ after tt went to library to burn e CD n study~ then oyster just nice need to come out to have lunch so come to library to visit me but never bring apple and oranges~ lol~ after lunch bro den came~ den his gf came~ they went to his house for dinner~ i went home~ ate tutu kui and some other stuffs~ then~ diarrhea~ =,=

22nd April - mens + diarrhea + no voice (coming back though) make me like supa supa weak and sian~ morn went to play tennis but felt very very nua~ nua nua de~ hahaa~ like~ jellyfish~ *wobbles* lol~ had lunch and initially wanted to go T21 study but Justin didn't reply my msg so went home to slp instead~ lol~ super tired! went for wine investment talk in the evening~ learn only abit nia la~ but rest is like =,= hahaha~ waste my time~ but found a new fren! =D haha~ she's frm m'sia and just started studying ACCA @ kaplan~ lol~ she said redang very very nice~! haha~ make my heart itchy nia~ lol

23rd April - DECIDED TO GO REDANG!!! haha~ if its like weekday i'm fine~ but it eats into my fri, sat, sun meaning i gotta pon work, pon YF, pon sunday sch, pon service!!! haha~ so bad! =,= tt's y initially didn't want to~ until~ i was being told how beautiful it is~ hahaha~ wanna go ther take LOTSA pics of the sea~ think its clearer there~ lol~ anywayz~ today went to work and studied wif bro a lil while before he go meet ppl for lunch~ went home to nua instead of study~ LOL~ =,=

24th April - went to sch~ to realise~ NO LESSON TODAY!!! ARGH!!! =,= how sotong can i be!?!?! lol~ i guess i live up to my nps sotong no 2 name sia~ or 3? =,= hahaa~ went home after i bought my violin mute n music theory book~ cooked lunch~ chicken stock noodle~ notch bad la~ but after tt the jap curry i cooked~ =,= haha~ guess i've lost my touch~ hahaha~ went prawn fishing and caught a few nia~ hahaa~ but quite fun la~ i FINALLY got the courage to hold the prawn~ but~ kenna kiap~! T.T so back to square one now~ hahaha~ went home after that~

25th April - TODAY!!! wad's on my itinerary? going lot 1 to see what's there at courts~ den go YF~ den go visit baby~ den ??? hahaa~ not studying today!!! XD very bad sia~ like this whole week never realli studied~ *piak on the buttock~* okie! i gotta go pom pom den go off le! ciao~! =D

20th April - couldn't sleep last night so woke up in the midd of night and blogged~ and guess wad?! i couldn't wake up the next morn~ =,= haha~ woke up at 10am~ went to Mac to get a happy meal so that i'd feel happier~ but nah~ went to kaplan to return book~ got another book~ met bro~ went back to panjang study~ nearly got knock down by car~ lucky bro shouted me and also i felt something pulling me back abit~ so never turn prata fish~ went to work~ horrible~ many ppl~ no voice~ very horrible~ sqeaking and squealling~ =,= boss abit weird~ don't know why~ is it something i've done wrong? =( wanted to get some food but i can't eat alot~ walked home and saw many many stars!!! =D stopped for a while and stare~ saw the orion belt which jianqi will always ask~ went back home~ watched desparate housewives~ got 1 scene super suit the feeling i'm feeling now~

Susan was upset that Katherine is with Mike who is her ex-husband~ and even more upset that her close friend Bree did not tell her despite know it~ Bree was very angry and shot her back~ saying that Susan was upset of her failed marriage with Mike and still hasn't let go despite they're divorced~ Bree told Susan that either she tells Mike her feelings or she just move on~

i ended my relationship though it was mutual just like Susan~ like her~ i still couldn't let go of things~ i still have feelings for him~ and if he were to be attached now~ i would definitely be upset just like her~ cause i have not let go of that feeling~ the day i am able to sincerely give him and his other half blessings~ would be the day i have let go i guess~ haha~

anywayz~ glad that i'm still one piece and such though without my voice~ dr told me not to talk~ so i shall not talk for the next few days and hopefully weeks bah~ haha~ maybe its better for me this way~ hope i won't turn mute~ lol~ but i wanna sing song! lol~ too bad la~ gotta wait till i get betta~ or i'll have permanent manly voice~ lol~ okie! i go watch tee bee liao~ ciaoz~!

13th April - Went to meet pandee for lunch and passed him cheesecake~ he sae its nice! hehe~ =D after that went to library to return books and borrow exam kits~ the librarian was sosososo nice! she remembered me asking for those exam kits and leave the ones i need aside! =D went to work after that and nearly died working alone~ got reprimanded again~ sian~

14th April - Went to library to study~ went to meet Serene~ went farm mart to fish spa and prawn prawns~ lol~ but we didn't stay too long cause she gotta go home early~ no luck man~ only caught like 3 prawns at the very last 15 mins~ =,=

15th April - Woke up early but was doing some stuffs~ by the time I was done and ready to leave the house it started POURING! on and off! like you switch on the lights on n off literally~ =,= so wait till the weather decide to not be so emo headed to the library~ but when I was at the LRT platform thinking through what have I forgotten~ TADA! i nearly totally forgot about meeting my laopo and nu er~ =,= lan diao lor~ so went down the platform and home waiting for time to pass and go meet them~ but not long after we met~ like 3-4 hrs later~ I went home again~ =,= coz... SICK!!! ARGH~! started having headaches and feeling uncomfortable and horrible throat~ =(

Popped 2 anarex pills and hit the sack like at 9pm?

16th April - woke up 8am~ slpt 11 hrs man! =,= tot was feeling oK! went out to meet bro to pass him some stuffs~ went to have lunch with them~ went library~ feeling not so ok~ *SNOOZE* was practically slping throughout our studying session =,= but really really feel very cui~ =,= slpy~ slpy~ slpy~ =,= decide to go home early~ went home~ popped pills again~ zzz~

17th April - LESSON!!! SIAN!!! feeling alright man! i guess~ hahaa~ went for lessons~ didn't doze off but stoned~ went home did a bit of stuff~ went to work~ no gaming session~ sian~ so met up with jianqi to chat~ realised he still knows me da best~ hahaa~ can literally predict how i tink and feel and what i would do and blah blah la~ so much for being tgt 3 years~ lol~ read me macham like open book liddat~ but thank you sosososososo much for being there~ =D

18th April - did volunteer work in the morn~ rushed home to learn cook dad's curry~ brought it down~ (but ate some before I left~) my voice starts to f................a.......d....e~ lol~ played lan at night~ went home~

19th April - had nightmare~ super super nightmare~ very scary~ scared until i cry~ =,= very bad~ woke up like 7am? =,= went back to slp like 1/2 hour later and went to sunday school~ tired~ no voice~ *dead* haha~ my voice sounds very horrible for 2 days liaoz~ sian~ can't really talk much cause ppl can't hear anywayz~ if only i have a whiteboard in my hand~ den i'll write loads on it~ hahaha~ but throat super pain~ muz b the curry~ T.T after service went for lunch~ go IMM with cs to buy some stuffs~ went to buy extra liao for family dinner~ went home and haf dinner wif family! =D *tink dad was happy~ at least for these 2 days~*

*Hey momo, miss u lots, missed u whenever watch ghost show cause u will always cover my eyes and ears~ missed u whenever there's many lightning and thunder around me cause you'll hug me and tell me there's nothing to be afraid off~ missed the many times when i dunno how to cross the road u'll hold my hand n lead me~ missed slping on your shoulders and not having any nightmares~ i don't know why~ missed many many things~ sorry for being weak~ =(

7th April - went studying with bro~ nothing exciting~ haha~

8th April - went to yijie's house to go with her to airport to send her off~! had lunch with her and her sis n her sis's bf~ after that met dejun @ bugis to shop~ went for tennis with vincent after that~ bz day~!

9th April - went studying with bro~ nothing exciting~ haha~ went to service after that~ nothing exciting~ went to watch "Knowing" with YF ppl~ COOL~ haha~ the beginning of the show was like so breathe-taking~ until the Alien opened his mouth (full of bad breathe) and killed the whole show~ =,= haha~ reached home super late like 2am? zzz~

10th April - Good Friday but still got lessons! T.T boo hoo~ after that met bro n gang @ a korean restaurant but they already finished their dinner liaozzz so joined for ISCREAM~! =D notch bad but not the best i've tasted~ XD went gaming after that~ had fun~! coz played L4D n Dota~!

11th April - woke up supa early~! went to St Luke as usual~ rushed home to make eggies for easter sunday~ rushed to YF~ went for dinner n gaming~ but not so fun la coz play CS~ =,=

12th April (TODAY)!!! - went for service early morn was running late again cause couldn't wake up~ haha~ went for sunday school~ fun fun~ the kids damn damn cute~ super like them~! haha~ then eng service~ n lunch n home till work time~ but got abit emo since yest n was tinkin of many things~ had developed a new theory~! haha~ its not for the EMO ppl cause its gonna make u more emo~ so muz put disclaimer~ XD

THIS IS A DISCLAIMER! People in the midst of EMO-ness or DO NOT WISH TO BE EMO please DO NOT scroll further down or any EMO-ness caused would not be compensated in any way! haha~

ok... I shall begin...

HOW did I develop this theory?

was walking towards bukit timah plaza with a few friends... 1 couple and another guy... initially we were ahead of the couple but the guy was so fast that I was left behind and the couple was left even more behind... but the guy stopped and I didn't wait so I became ahead until I sudd realised he was too behind so stopped... after that the couple caught up and we continued walking from the same starting point but the couple ahead and the guy behind... I was following at the back but at a different pace... at a pace I was feeling at that time... and in no time I was left behind a distance away from them... then they slowed down abit at the gate and I caught up (can't remember did I run up to catch up their pace)... and we all went into da building safe! XD *that's not the main point la~*

WHAT'S the theory?

A relationship is like finding someone who walks the same pace as u... side by side with you...

but in order to do that both parties would have to give and take...

sometimes the boy will have to slower his pace for the girl and vice versa...

when the guy/gal walks too fast ahead without looking back... the other party would be left far behind... this happens as the guy/gal did not observe the other party's pace and so walked at his/her own pace...

when the guy/gal turns behind and realised that the other party is far far behind... that's when they would stop a while to turn back and ask the other party to hurry up to catch up without giving much thoughts how the person being left behind would have already felt...

and when the other party catches up that's when they start walking side by side for a while...

but if the guy/gal continues to follow his own pace... the same thing would happen again if both of them do not observe each other's pace... the other party which was left behind previously would be left behind again... OR the other party would try super hard to fasten his/her pace so that can be as fast as the guy/gal... which ends up they would both be apart again...

After many attempts of trying to walk at the same pace and side by side... after asking the other party to catch up or trying to catch up the other party... made both people weary...

month by month... year by year... until eventually both of them are tired... they no longer want to ask the other party to catch up or try to catch up so that they would be in synchronization anymore... they are very tired... physically... emotionally... totally... heartbroken...

they decide to part their ways... so that they can walk at their own pace comfortably... slow down as and when they want... walk faster when they feel like walking faster... but not sychronizing with any other people around...

occasionally... they will meet some people who walks with them at their pace... one... two... a whole group... but soon these people will be gone... they just happen to be walking at that pace but will change their pace soon after as they are looking for the pace that they want to walk in...

Hopefully one faithful day... they will be able to meet someone... someone special... who observes their every pace and they too observe the other party's pace... they both come into synchronization without having to go through too much tiresome chasing... they both walked hand in hand... side by side... at the same pace as their hearts beat together as one... towards the same direction smiling at one another... =)

HUH?! Don't get it?!

haha~ its ok if you don't really understand~ there's more than what's written here about walking paces~

why?

cause I've been observing paces of other classifications of people~ like friends~ family~ blah blah~ still trying to derive more theory~ maybe can write a book called pace? LOL~

*THE ABOVE WRITTEN CONTENT BELONGS SOLELY TO ME SO ANY ADAPTATION OR ILLUSTRATIONS OR SIMILAR THINGS WHICH IS COPED FROM HERE HAS TO GIVE CREDITS HERE AND SEEK APPROVAL FROM ME! PATENT NO: 0903793*

*I am beginning to understand why God was so cruel... why did He do this to me... the puzzles I'm gathering now is giving me bit by bit of the big picture God was trying to let me see... I finally understand why we parted ways... although the pain tears my heart apart... but I believe it pains Him to see the pain that I/We are going through... I pray for you in my heart... that you will be able to find peace in your heart and the love of another girl who can walk side by side with you...*

4th April - Went for flag day early early morn~ zzz~ so tireD~ but tried 2 put my smile n such~ =D hahaa~ tireD~ bumped into Barney while selling da flags~ talked abit~ found out that he's flying to Aus to study toooooooooo~ @ ANU~ argh!!! everybody's like flying off to study!!! haha~ so envy~ =( went home~ baked cookie~ rushed 2 YF~ had loadsa fun playing taboooooo~ went dinner @ bukit timah shopping centre with everyone~ after which played LAN! hahaha~ till like 12 plus~ went home~ SHAG~ hahaha~

5th April - Had lil slp and woke up early to go sunday sch (i'm not da student nor tcher just helping out nia~ haha) one of da kids started lookin for mummy again den gotta pian xiao hai again~ haha~ XD but tt boy darn cute la~ lol~ after everyone starts to follow the teacher sing he will like go over and join~ once everyone starts to become quiet again he'll start finding for mummy~ gotta like keep him busy~ haha~ went for english svc~ interesting topic they have~ but was super tired that i've dozed off during some parts~ lol~ went play LAN again! >.< took cab 2 work coz was late~ bzbz @ work~ patients come in non-stop~ went home~ zZzZzZz~ SUPER TIRED AR~! haha~

6th April - Woke up late like 9 plus? haha~ had super good slp and super enuf slp~ super SHIOK AR~! went to kaplan wanted to borrow exam kits but it'll only be in nxt wk? so gotta try my luck as there is only 2 books~ =,= walked to far east shopping centre to repair my psp as i've screwed it but luckily there was no charges~ but was super tempted 2 buy wiiiiiii coz its only 299 now!!! weeeeee~! =D walked to far east plaza to take 105 to JE~ SUPER LONG RIDE~ so slpt on the bus~ so SHIOK! lol~ met bro and had lunch~ went to study~ but didn't study much coz ended up chatting and went off early cause i've gotta work~ haha~ XD so tomorrow shall go there even earlier to chop seats and hopefully study! XD haha~ worked till super late today~ zzz~ cause there's this patient who came in super late to have medical check up and it takes super long to have a full body check up~ =,= missed half of my desperate housewives~ hahaa~ tada~! end of day! lol~ shall sleep after watching america's next top model and go zzz liaoz~ =D

no pics coz kp 4getting 2 take pics~ haha~ XD shall take more pics n upload!!! okie~ e show's finishing soon~! taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

1st April - Its a bad bad start of the day for me~ i had to see hammy die right in front of my very eyes~ its very cruel~ cruel to her and to me too~ cried while she was about to leave and said a lil prayer so that she need not struggle like that for too long~ After that went to JE library to study with Yijie again~ though I'm very very sad~ felt very heartbroken~ even the thought of it now still bring tears into my eyes~ but life still have to go on~



If I were to msg ppl saying that my hamster died most ppl would tink that i'm jokin as it is April's fool day~ haha~ wad an irony~



After lessons went to IMM to find shoes as my shoes are in quite bad shape and its time to get new ones~ but couldn't find any~ couldn't get the duckies too so ended up with empty hands~ =( had lessons and learnt alot and went home with godma~ haha~

2nd April - meet up with my frenz for lunch ended up kena pangsei by 1 cause last min got mtg~ =( and cooked duckie today~! =D but not super nice la~ just edible nia~ lol~ after that passed godma duckie, went to fren'z home to pass some arty farty stuff~ bumped into my sec sch fren who doesn't recognise me~ went home~ watch drama till late nite like 2 plus~ slpppppp~ haha~

3rd April - super no mood to study after talking to bro~ no motivation~ very emo~ watched too much drama~ hahaa~ ran off 1/2 way during lessons~ LOL~ XD went to watch "COMING SOON" with my fren~ coz another bunch of frenz discussed the movie's content so kinda know who's the ghost but still got scared like shit by the stupid sound effects and people around me screaming~ haha~ last time had jianqi to like cover my ears and eyes in case its too scary for me since he's so brave~ hahaha~ XD but now~ nah~ tink i'm spoiled liaoz~ used to him sheltering me~ haha~ sigh~ went to eat tou hua after that~ go home~

now at home~ no gaming session dunno y~ going to bake cookies soon~ wanna puke blood cause colleague sudd sae i had 2 work on fri nites coz she has 4gotten totally wad i've told her previously but shall remind her again when i see her nxt nxt fri~ feeling slpy~ emo~ cranky? emo~ emo~ emo~ lol~

2ml? got long long day ahead~ day after 2ml? got long long day + work @ nite~ zzz~

*1 mth after a heartbreak comes another~ what's next? more heartbreaks to come?*

31st Mar - Study daEEE~!

Went studying wif Yijie~ notch bad~ got a lil progress~ though we're abit late~ ha~ a picture of her giving full concentration as shown below~~~


After that went Ikea to get stuffs for the JYFers who are going YF e door gifts~ but not the pic as shown below~ this is just a curtain which i happen to see and looks nice? haha~