29th Mar- Had pepperlunch @ its restaurant for the 1st time! =D
didn't really know how to go about eating it~ so my fren helped me mixed~ need to flip the meat over or else only one side will be cooked~ lol after that quickly put in the sauces~ if you can't take spicy stuffs~ DON'T put pepper~! haha~ cause the rice itself already has pepper~ lol~

went with a few of them to ikea and realised i've missed the place very very much~ T.T after which i headed towards bukit timah shopping centre to play LAN~! XD

30th Mar- Dating laopo and meeting lyn to cut hair! XD

had breakkie wif my laopo~ talked quite abit after sosososo long~ watched "Confessions of a Shopaholic"~ DARN FARNY~! hahaa~ The show is goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood~! XD

went SHOPPING~! but window only la~ hahaa~ after watching that show~ it really makes you feel abit like shopping after watching that show man! XD saw these 2 tops @ Esprit~

Though looks like more or less the same~ but cuteR? dunno~ XD hha~ so bhb~ hahaa~ went work after tt~ so tireD~~~ ZZZZZ~ had headache n bought pills to pop~ *fainTz*

gtg~! 2ml's another bzbzbz day~! =D

*i'll take care of fish~*

Realised many stuffs since we've broke up~

1) I've very very very long never immense myself into playing music for a very very very long time le~ hahaa~ missed that feeling~ missed learning new instruments and trying them out~ missed anything and everything that has got to do with musiC~

2) Its after we broke up or rather just before that I got to learn how to play those kinda need to walk around and shoot games like left 4 dead, dota, CS, etc~ which I wanted to learn from you but you were saying that I need not learn to play with you~ (but I still feel couples should have like common games or else the guy will feel super deprived from gaming? haha~ I dunno~)

3) I suddenly realised there's so much things that I've been missing out and many things that I want to do but did not do for whatever reason and now these things are like shouting out to me~ "HEY! COME OVER HERE!" haha~ =,=

4) I'm feeling I don't know is it relieved or peaceful or I don't really know how to describe? Its like we never quarrel anymore~ (can't really quarrel since we're not together~ haha~) but we've like msged each other less frequently than last time and such~ maybe you prefer this kind of lifestyle? (then you should have told me earlier ma~ =,=)

Anywayz~ my conclusion is that I've been missing out alot on MUSIC (my love, that's why my title is missing you my love~ lol), FRENZ (their outings and such), EXPLORATION (I just can't sit still~ lol), SELF-REALIZATION (lost myself and became like you after being too long tgt! XD jkjk), blah blah la~

Though I still missed you and so~ but I've already packed my luggage and moved on~ hope you have moved on smoothly too~ I will still love you~ but no longer as a partner~ as a good good good friend~ =)

okiE~! gotta go meet my wife and daugther le~! shall blog like how I used to wif LOADS of pictures describing my week~ hahaa~

*If the gifts from God weren't used~ its as good as these gifts didn't exist~
I shall use it again~ no longer for myself~ but for God~ =)

was having some stupid study/work crisis last night~ haha~ WHY?!

cause~

I DUN WANNA B ACCOUNTANT~! LOL

or rather I can't really see myself doing such a job~ why?

Audit - Must be able to think like a business man/cunning accountant/villians etc. But I know I can't~ too dumb liaoz~ bei pian jiu you~ haha~ if I can't think like a villian, I won't be a good Auditor~ and I realise now Auditors are not as respected as they were last time though I don't really know why~ =S

Taxation - I'm PEA BRAINED~ haha~ last night Jianqi asked me what's IR8A form for? I know its income tax but i couldn't remember need to file anot~ LOL went to check my textbook and replied him~ DON'T NEED! haha~ and the taxation I'm learning now its juz the basics~ =,= there's a ADVANCE TAXATION~ think I'll sure die man~ hahaha~ imagine~~~~

client: "Hey~ this one hor~ how to go about doing it ar?"

me: "eh~~~ Hmmm~~~ lemmi see~~~ I'll get back to you? (using the business presentation style~ LOL)"

after client left~ i turn around and flip vigorously through my textbooks~ LOL~ =,= so drama rite? =,= soon i'll be fired man~ hahaha~

Financial Reporting - FRS 1? 16? blah blah? what are those for? =,= hahaha~ just studied last sem n everything's already outta da window~ if I can't remember those~ how to prepare those thick thick financial reports to be issued to shareholderS? =,=

Financial Management - hmmm~ its abit like economics~ but my tcher's explanation very fast n chim n ... so ended up studying on my own but this one like scored better then e rest though still fail~ XD haha~ but I suck at predicting stuffs n almost managing my own finance how can i manage a co's finance?! haha~

and in the midst of all these~ now they are like looking for dip holders with like 1/2 yrs experience and on top of that the pay now is so much better back then when the economy was doing well~ =,= don't realli know why~ but~ its so tempting la~! like those marketing jobs the pay used to like so lousy for dip holders now so much better? and instead of starting off as an marketing assistant can just start of as marketing executive~ =,= can climb more~ =,= sian diao lor~ don't really know what to do now~ T.T

i've always liked marketing job~ though its about deadlines n deadlines and rushing n last min changes here n there and all the shit n crap but apparently i liked this kinda shit landing on my head~ LOL~ bian tai rite? =,= but i realli can see myself like doing those marketing job? like advertising, events, brochures, flyers, promotional campaigns, blah blah~ can see myself enjoy doing all these la~

SIGH~

so what's my options?

forget about ACCA~ throw it aside together with all the money and time invested in it previously~ and look for a marketing job while persuing deg in marketing or business major in marketing or wad~

OR

continue to struggle passing ACCA~ bite my teeth~ bite my nails~ hang on even if it takes 10 years to complete~ juz complete tt DARN THING! =,= but what's ahead after that? i DIE DIE have to work at an accounting firm for 3 years to get the ACCA title~ after that i haf to keep renew-ing my license~ and if I were to work as a marketer after that my 3 years accounting working experience will go down the drain (literally) cause its a totally non-related field~ =,=

WHY CAN'T ACCOUNTING AND MARKETING GET MARRIED?! haha~ =,=

or maybe i work 10 years as accountant and 10 years as marketer? =,= lol

SUPER LOST MAN~!

I WANT TO SEE LIGHT~!!!!! Hahahah~ =,=

Finally I've faced the truth... what truth? we've already broke up...

though it has only been 3 weeks since we broke up~ but the 3 weeks were a roller coaster ride for me~

tried to make myself busy with all the activities and etc~ spent alot of money (spending therapy?)~ getting emo on and off~ blah blah blah~

but noW?

I guessed I pretty much fine~ =)

why?

I don't know~ maybe God has been holding my heart to not let it fall apart~ gave me wonderful friends to help me through this period of time~ let me know that even if everyone hates me or is against me He's always there with me and for me~ =)

I've accepted the fact that we've broke up but at least we're not broken~ Now I'm tidying up my feelings, my table, my stuffs, and etc and start to move on from here~ though the road ahead will be tough~ but I'm sure I can do it! =D

was on my way home when it started pouring like cats n dogs (if only they do really fall from the sky i'll catch a few home)~

my friend was like telling me Singapore is the world's top country which has the most frequent lightning (dunno include thunder anot)~ =S

not a very good news to me afterall coz i'm afraid of the lightning and also thunder~

was on train but the lightnings and thunders filled my whole journey back that i closed my eyes, turned on my ipod and covered my ears~ T.T

when i reached Choa Chu Kang... there was a delay in train service dunno y... which adds on to my fear cause the platform is like so small and there's like many open spaces n such so the lightning n thunder would be double the scary~ T.T

sigh~ bad bad scary rainy day~ =(

*wished u were here to cover my ears and eyes and tell me that everything's alright...

What am I doinG?

watching OKTO! haha~

i like to watch tues n wed nite shows~ tues nite is mythbusters whereas wed is animal night~

my sis was like so agitated when the young of an animal was about to be eaten by another animal~ both animal to me are equally cute~ one fox (dono wad species) the other is penguin (also dono wad species)~ cute ritE? XD

so I was like asking her: "Which you like like more? The fury one or feathery one?"

she: "Fury one!"

me: "ya lo~ the fury one is hungry so bo bian gotta eat to survive rite?"

she: "..."

haha~ many people think that its cruel how nature is~ one kills the other for food though it looks cutE? but that's not the point~ u can't haf only cute animals on earth rite? they'll just massive breed and over populate on earth~ can you imagine if each of them fart how much methane is produced which can kill the ozone layeR? XD therefore God created such a cycle i guess~ haha~

then what about humans? we are multiplying but nobody eats or kills us? (other than terrorists)

therefore there's natural disasters i guess~ hahaa~

*i dono why am i writing this anyway*

was working last night and there was a kid who had a cut on her head~ she had 2 choices:

1. Let the doctor glue it up wif tissue glue

2. Go A&E and let the other doctors do the stitching or gluing

she didn't want any of those choices and keep insisting on going home but she cannot go home cause her wound will have infections which will make it worse~ so what did she do?

make a scene~ cry~ refuse to cooporate~ etc~

I was outside doing my stuffs while she was inside making noise~ when she came out~ she still couldn't make a choice and still refuses treatment~ but at least she's more calm down now~ i looked at her and told her that it will be over very fast~ all she needs to do is to endure that pain for a while and it'll be all gone in a moment~ if its very painful, clench her fists, count sheeps, focus on munching sweets~ while u r focusing on all these time will pass faster~ (cause the doctor told her it was 5 mins so she's got the idea that 5 mins is very long. but it is la if u r like just sitting there and doin nothing~ haha~) also told her that this pain isn't as the most painful thing she's gotta face~ in future there's more painful things that she's gotta bear and if she's not brave how is she gonna protect her parents? (i also had no idea why i said that~ haha~)

after my encouragement and persuasion and directions on how to distract herself, she sums up her courage and went in~ with occasional complains of pain~ she clenched her fists~ eats the sweet~ and the most painful part was over~ =) she didn't had to go to choice 2 which is more painful i guess~ haha~ she was brave~

what lesson can we learn? many~

in life~ we usually don't have a painless choice~ its just which one has more consequences~

when people around you are feeling down~ sad~ unmotivated~ a little encouragement can make a big difference~ =)

when in pain~ clench your fists~ close your eyes~ munch on sweet~ focus on something else like counting sheeps~ the worse will be over very soon~

no matter what you do~ BE BRAVE! cause after every storm there's a rainbow waiting for you~ =)

this is what i've learnt but i guess other people have other perceptions and learnt diff things from this? =D

but this happened at the very right time... to me... =)