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Saturday, January 31, 2009Y
THANK YOU GOD~! =D

Maybe some of you might find this post abit *duh* like everything's a coincidence and shit and blah~ but to me, today was a very miraculous day~

I've been having a tough and bad week the whole of last week... tried to bring my bike for repair but when the bus uncle asked me to fold the bike properly before i board he ran away... wanted to bring my bike onto e lrt i got shoo-ed off by a cleaning lady... catched a cab but the cab uncle didn't help to carry my bike into and out of the car boot... went to repair and lost my hp back cover and nearly batt (cause i realised both dropped off and went to find it)... had patients with weird and bad attitudes and got scolded by the doctor for something's not really my fault? after which had a quarrel with the one i loved who initially treated mahjong more important than me until i kick a big fuss n let him choose between me and mahjong he decided its me who is more important... after which my sis and mum gave me attitude because of some lantern and mum n dad was havin cold war... and now me havin a bad reputation as a gf, fren and Christian...

All these shit was roughly what i remembered excluding those small shits that i've stepped on... i was thinking if all these happened... was it a test from God? or pranks by Satan? its barely a week before and after Chinese New Year and yet so many many things happened... Though having all these shit revolving around me... and having to face it alone as jianqi was in camp all these while... i was lucky that i had my bro when the jianqi thing happened... and also bunny n sheep n mama who asked about it when it was over... =)

today~ God's grace was showed once again on a insignificant lousy Christian like me... =)

I missed the phone calls for my job interview like 2 days in a row... 1st day i guess the person 4got to call and 2nd day i missed the call as so coincidently (in a bad way) i've left my phone at home... today the 3rd day... the person called and i picked up!!! I was like "yay~! at least i still have a chance!" =D but after the phone interview~ i was super feeling lousy, cause i got a feeling i wouldn't get that job~ i'm fine without getting that job since i've already had the job but i felt bad cause bunny could have get a better candidate than me who would have nabbed the job and not waste an opportunity~ coz every opportunity is $$$~ =((((

went for lessons but wasn't able to concentrate so ended up msg-ing my bro n darling~ haha~ walked from centrepoint to marina square as i was feeling quite down n wanted to have a hair cut but happen to see SALE~!!! everywher~!!! so i decided to go for shopping therapy and bought 2 tops!!! 1 usual price $43 now $9!!! another 1 usual price $66 but now $29!!! *WOW* i felt super happy after buying that! haha~ but when i went to the salon, to my horror, the stylist moved to jurong point branch~ =,= so went all the way to jurong point to cut my hair~ coz was feeling down n super feel like cutting my hair~

on my way there~ bunny called~ i tot she called to inform me that i didn't get the job~ but~! to my super super surprise~ i got it!!! =D it was really really God's grace~ I prayed to God after the lousy interview that no matter what happens, whether i get the job or not, everything will be fine and i put all these in God's hands~ God answered my prayer! =D and on top of that, instead of starting on 2nd Feb which was initially told, they will be starting my work only on the 9th Feb!!!

why is it so significant? because jianqi will be out on thurs night if i'm not wrong due to off-in-lieu and I wanted to spend the Fri with him~ sososososo coincidently my work starts directly after the week which he'll be having off-in-lieu!!! =D i feel sosososososo blessed and happy after picking up that phone call! thanks bunnY!!! for all your effort in pushing me this lousy candidate!!! XD

went home happily~ slpt and nearly overslpt due to exhaustion but dunno wad woked me up so wasn't super late... but usually the doc would be in but the doc was even more latE!!! XD lucky me~! =D hahaa~

but anywayz~ its like sosososososo *WOW* today... i really can't believe it until now... still feels like a dream... too good to be true... haha~ but anywayz~ i'm very very thankful to God and feel very very blessed~! =D Thank you God! =)

ends at 12:00 AM

Friday, January 30, 2009Y
a big THANK YOU~!

I would like to thank those who were very concerned about me when they read my blog~

THANK YOU~! =) *you know who you guys are*

and also those who spent time listening to me~ i'm really very grateful esp when i'm such a problematic kid! XD

for those who noticed a change in me as in temper wise~ thank you very much for telling me cause it really encourages me to improve! =D

things between me and him are fine again as on that day he forego his mahjong session and came down to talk things out with me *which already implies that mahjong isn't as important as i am*

we hadn't been sitting down talking like that for ages~ though i can see that he was very tired due to morning trainings and rushing down to mahjong without even bathing after he booked out~ we ironed things out and gave 1 month to this relationship if things gets worse~ that night he said that actually he didn't intend to play mahjong but its because of that small lil gian he went and realised it wasn't a good choice in any way~ he was sick and tired but made a bad decision to play overnite mahjong with his horrible condition plus if we didn't quarrel he would have to meet me the next morn without any sleep~ I do admit that I was implusive that nite in making such a decision to say such things or give him such decisions to make~ its because i know him too well~ far too well~ if i hadn't did anything like that, what will happen?

1st - he would be very very very tired and when he goes home he'll hit the sack while I'll be upset and affected by the whole thing the whole night plus the whole morning and afternoon until he wakes up to solve it~

2nd - he will be more sick than the day before plus he had his cough for already a month and havin less sleep means your immune system will be weakened

3rd - even if he were to force himself to meet me in the morn, we will end up quarrelling worse den last nite as he hadn't had sleep at all and he won't be thinking in a logical or sensible manner which will lead to frustration among the both of us and eventually breaking up because of lack of sleep and frustration

4th - he's the kinda guy if you do not give extreme choices he wouldn't be able to make a choice. What do I mean by that? if i told him, choose between apple and orange, he would say either "you choose" or "i dunno". if i told him, choose between apple and orange and if you don't choose either you will be killed, den he might make a choice which he feels is a better one. He's a wooden block and indecisive.

Tink about consequences and consideration for others? at most the mahjong session gets cancelled and postponed to another day? is it a must have on that day? is it 10 months since the last time you guys played? If you asked me to be considerate for others, den did you guys considered my feelings in the first place when you said something like that?

For that one person whom I used to trust in and confide to~
I don't condemn you, neither do I loathe you or hate you cause you don't get the whole picture. You have your own reasons to write such an angry post but I don't blame you cause I did in actual fact spoiled your game of mahjong. But I was sad over the fact that those hurtful words came from no one but you. I don't hate you, but I'm disappointed as a good friend. If mahjong is more important than friendships, I guess I'm not a good friend as to me friendships are more important than mahjong. Besides, that night, jianqi made his choice. He chose to agree to the game and chose to left the game. So he has partial responsibility to the unhappy ending of the game too (not that I'm trying to push the blame).

And also, if you have something against me due to my not-so-christian personality and way of doing things, please do not use things like Christians would do what and what. I admit I'm a Christian but i've not learned everything and practiced everything that what Christian's would do. I'm still in the process of learning and changing and growning spiritually. I know what i did do not glorify God but that doesn't mean that I will be like that forever or I'm a crooked Christian. I just became a Christian last Aug. Do you expect God to turn me good over night?

Gambling and Interest/Hobby
I like to play mahjong~ yes I do~ but not to gamble~ from $0.10/$0.20 it became $0.20/$0.40 and $0.30/$0.60 half and then $0.30/$0.60? what's next? $0.50/$1? $1/$2? from zhi mo + $0.20 and kang becomes $0.40/$0.80? How much more are you gg to increase the rates? Its never ending I can tell you~ I've a colleague who knew of someone who gambled away his bungalows cause they played in gold bar terms~ they wrote cheques~ threw gold bars in~ so is that wad its gonna be like in the future?

I must admit, I'm a sore loser. Esp when it comes to money. Why? I'm not working full time. I don't save up on usual days. My monthly take home pay is only ard 300? I have to pay for my own expenses. I'm LUCKY that i've got my mum to temporarily help me pay for my sch fees. If I lose 20 every week, i'd be losing almost 1/3 of my pay?

when me and jianqi go play, sometimes i'll win alot, sometimes he'll win, and sometimes both of us will lose. Do you really think i'm super super happy winning when i see him feeling sad? He's not earning much too and he's very thrift. That tens of dollars might mean alot to him? I'm not trying to portray that how pathetic how he is or i am. But I feel that if you really love to play mahjong, do you really have to play at such a high stake?

what's the most I won before? 30plus? 40?

what's the most I lost before? 60plus?

to me~ i feel that mahjong is just a hobby and a game like monopoly i enjoy playing~ If u scared that u'll doze off~ den make it a point that the loser will treat drinks? at least when you guys sit down n drink u'll get 2 talk and bond at the same time? I liked the bonding on the mahjong table as in get to talk and stuff. but as the stakes gets higher and everyone doesn't wan to lose so much, less words are spoken and instead its replaced by silence.

I do love mahjong and I noe its not really possible yet to take it out of my life immed and jianqi's too~ but I don't want to gamble~ I just wan to play~ its that simple~

my bro tell me: to get e wrong idea clearly, whether its right or not is not bound by really there is money or not. what if i gamble lets say sweets? will gambling whatever the items will be, caused you, or your friend to be greedy and gamble. is it a sin or not is bound by the person's intention.

ends at 10:22 PM

Friday, January 23, 2009Y
Heart. . . . . . Broken

My tears keep rolling down... but my heart bleed more than my tears...

I have not eaten my dinner... but i don't feel hungry at all...

Even plain rice tasted salty cause of my tears...

no word can describe my overall feelings...

mixed feelings are felt within...

angry?

sad?

disappointed?

lost?

hopeless?

devastated?

blank?

numb?

immune?

reluctant?

???

many many words to describe the feeling but no 1 word to sum it up...





perhaps its time to move on...

All I can do now is to calm my heart and pray~

ends at 11:10 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2009Y

Have been having a very very busy and entertaining and fulfilling month from after my exams in Dec up till now and I guess till end of CNY before I'll be slightly free~ XD

Have LOADS of pictures I wanna upload but due to mua busi-ness and lazi-ness therefore its been delayed~!

Picture speaks a thousand words so I shall leave my pictures to talk! XD


Da First Baked Pasta I've made from scratch! tastes not bad! XD

Da Apology flower my botak head bought for me during my exams period~! it kept me happy during the stressful exam period~


After da exams, went to Shokudo (if i nv spell wrongly) to eat! its like Marche but jippun stylE~! its nicE~!!! =) ordered cold soba, jellyfish, sashimi etc~ XD


Went to kushinbo with my botak head before going to chalet~! notch bad la~ but too bad we didn't get 2 eat e alaskan crabbie coz was like lookin forward to it~ =( but overall still notch bad la~ esp the deserts~ XD
Went to chalet org by my darling, HC, QM, penguin, etc~ =)

And after that... Christmas camE~! XD and many trees were cut down... =( to form...
Log Cakes~!!!! XD *shivers*


Went for Dim Sum for my mama's b-day celebration~ darn nicE~! xin fu yin cha is still mua fav! =D

Lynnie came 2 mua house n i cooked for heR~! =D

Went for New Year countdown wif naz they all~ and had NABE before that~ yum yum~! =)

Had make-a-cookie session wif lynniE~ and she made a star shaped cookie n...

a smiley face one too~! XD


And finally my past 2 weeks of hardwork~
Biscuits~

Pineappletarts~

Cornflake Cookies (improvised version)~

And more pineapple tarts! XD

A very artistic pic of all my babies~ XD

Very very very tired from all da baking but also very very very happy cause feel very satisfied when the stuff I baked most ppl say its nice and even my very picky dad ate 1 too!!! XD for the past 2 weeks have been baking these few stuffs~ wanted to try more but my mum keep asking me to bake the cornflake cookie coz its darn darn nice esp the improvised version~ =,= It was Sam's mum, my godma who gave the suggestion of using whole piece cereal and also giving me advice saying that no mood = no good~! hahaa~ so this time round i make sure my mood good good time enough so that I won't panic and produce not nice cookies~ XD Hope that can bring some for NPS people to eat if they have any gathering~ =)

Last but not least~ today's the last day my botak head is having field camp~ hope everything's fine for him (we all know he'll be)~ Miss you lots botak head! come back and be my baking maria! I super short-handed! XD


ends at 9:33 PM

Sunday, January 04, 2009Y
Harpi New Ear~!

VERY LONG NEVER BLOG LE~! =D

haha~ its 2009~! new year got new resolutions!!! =D

1) Stop gambling mahjong! XD though like alot of times keep wanting to but "you xing er li bu zhu"

2) Pass my ACCA exams I take this year!!! I'm aiming to take like 4 per sem which is like 8 in total so must pass!!! *T.T chor die mi~* after failing for like so many papers and if plus last sem don't know how many more sia~ =,= if i can clear 8 subjects this year den I will be able to graduate by next year? *prays damn hard*

3) Discipline!!! force myself to study by hook or by crook! XD

4) SAVE MONEY!!! hahhaa~ its not due to the recession la~ just that I always cannot save up which I seriously don't know why and where my money flew too~ XD though its been like on my mouth for ages and at times i did save cheng gong budden~ XD will somehow or another gone due to some reason~ hahaa~

5) Eat healthier!!! I wanna eat more vege and fruits this year! go back to my healthy diet few months back which made mi shed like 1 kg in 1-2 months? XD

basically that's all I guess? haha~ hope i'm able to fufil my new year resolutions!!! =D

ends at 7:52 PM